Blessedly Horrifying & Wrestling With The Angel

 I am having some intense ongoing "wrestling with the angel" experiences.  I've hesitated to write about it until (God willing) it is done. . . .

But this much I can say, I believe authorized just from today. . . .

That is, "Even the very numbers of your hairs are numbered.  Don't be afraid, fear not.  You are more valuable than many sparrows." 

His omniscience, omnipotence, omnipresence, forever astound and floor me.  AND, He is Love and He has what we call "a sense of humor".  And He is One to fear.  He is so deep, so complex, so beyond all--yet the all in all.  Words fail, but the heart doesn't, and is the bottom line way to express love of God, even if words fail, to experience and receive the joy of: one can love God as He loves us.  All Granted!

As far as the number of the hairs on your head, which He knows, He is saying in that verse two things that are eternal and, thus important to know.  If the number of the hairs are known to Him, YOU are extremely loved and valued by Him.  BUT, don't get too full of yourself.  You are more valuable than many sparrows.

Well, and along with these wrestling matches, it continues to be stressed that Hell is real.  And if you've ever seen a glimpse or experience of it, truly, you don't wish it on your worst enemy.  Thus, forgive your enemies, as YOU are forgiven by God.  We are to be Godly--imitate God's love and mercy.

He is Holy and Just.  Hence, as far as the wrestling matches have so far revealed, nothing impure, nor perfect, nor love . . . can be in The Kingdom.  And those who reject His love, and who actually hate and blaspheme and curse Him . . . go to their place . . . where they can do that for eternity.

It's blessedly horrifying.

love you, bro t