Saturday, January 31, 2015

GOD is God; you're not.

Here's the thing, the big critical difference. . . . When Brent Metcalfe shouted at God and demanded He answer in such and such a way, when there seemed to be but silence in response, Brent decided, "Aha! That must mean there is no God, yay!"

When God did not conform to the ideal Brent had in mind for how God ought to be and behave, then the opportunity was taken to turn altogether from seeking Him.  Look to self instead.

This is classic idolatry.  Make an image of God in your own mind of what He should be like according to your personal predilections, then when God doesn't fit that model you claim He must not exist.  Then you fashion a god or an ideal which suits your particular wants and preferences . . . and focus (worship) that.  [Note here, the 1st commandment broken straight outta the gates!]

Now when I had my own moment of yelling at the sky, imploring God to give me some sign, some clue as to direction in order to find and serve Him (which was just one of many such incidents) it did not occur to me to think, "Well God, that was your chance to show me if you exist.  Since you leave me here in silence . . . I conclude you DON'T exist." 

There was no doubt in my mind that God existed.  I knew He did and does, as we all do.  I figured I just had to keep on keepin' on and perhaps one day He would reveal Himself . . . or not if He chose not to.  I thank God I never suffered such childish, unthinking hubris to think that God OWED me an answer, let alone an answer in the precise way I demanded it. . . . I did, however, believe the scripture that said "seek and ye shall find."

Generally what people want when they are seeking to "see" or "hear" from God . . . is a feeling.  Most spiritual rookie's mistake FEELING for Spirit.   The Mormon church especially, but virtually all false religions and cults determine that "assurance" or "spiritual experience" is based in a certain feeling.  The genuine Truth seeker learns that "feeling" is unreliable and highly susceptible to use as a tool of deception by those enemies who would thwart or capture.

Many ask God to reveal Himself, to show The Way.  Many get "silence" in response.  They get no FEELING.  The big difference, for example, again is this:  I did not base my continued pursuit of God, of Truth on this LACK of feeling.  I knew what we all know, that HE IS.  Which also shows, by the way, that regardless of getting "spiritual" feelings or not, we are yet accountable, because we already KNOW on some deep level that He exists.  His Word tells us so.

Nor did I question that is was and must always be His prerogative to answer me or not, when, how, if He ever did in the way I wanted.

Remaining in this position is what's so conducive to finally reaching the Truth because it is a position  of humility, of submitting.  God gives grace to the humble but resists the proud.  If you are prepared to soldier on, whether you "hear" from God or not, whether you get "spiritual" feelings or not, then you are showing that you recognize His sovereignty.  You are not pridefully (and oh so foolishly) demanding God respond in a particular way OR ELSE!  You are instead willing to wait, to persist in imploring, but accepting that He--being God--can and will do just what He wills to do and in the way He wants to do it.

A major pitfall is this (and it is the case with very many so-called "believers" who are really "false converts"):  That you make an idol in your mind of who God is, what He is like . . . and then you receive strong "spiritual" feelings surrounding this idol.  Which then confirms to you that you are really in relationship with Him.  You've got a testimony after all!  You've "felt" Him! 

Problem is, is that the Enemy well knows this weakness and tendency in the fallen human to mistake "feelings" for being "the Spirit".  The Spirit may or may not give you certain "spiritual" feelings, but this is not what you are to base your discernment upon.  The act of repentance ("metanoia") is a CHANGE OF MIND.  Perception of the Truth happens first in a mental assent, in acknowledging Jesus is Who He says He is.  Feeling follows thought.  It is usually a dangerous thing when thought is led around by feelings.  That is the path to self delusion and mind control used by superior thinkers with ill intent.

Now, life precedes it all.  Life precedes faith.  Faith does not come before life.  This another error that is common in those who are led astray.  That is, to believe that you must have faith first, before you can "see" or "hear" The Truth, The Answer.  But again, this leads to the route of self deception and trickery imposed by others.  It leads to pride; in fact it DERIVES from pride, from self love that is above love of God.

No, first come life.   God raises you from the dead--pulls you from the ranks of the living dead and thus causes you to be able to "see" and "hear".  He gives you life, changes your "heart of stone" to one of "flesh" . . . and from there you can at last exercise faith.  Finally, you can Believe! 

But looks how the rebellious fallen nature resists this.  Instantly, I can already hear, "wait . . . you mean GOD does it all?  Where is the part for ME to get some credit?  Are you saying it is up to GOD whether I am "alive" or not?  Whether I can exercise faith?  No way.  I don't think so.  First it is ME who has to be the one to want Him, seek Him.  I, I, I, I, I am the one who seeks and finds! I, I, I, I, I am the one who has the power of life and death, heaven or hell!"

But I digress. . . .

Again, the big difference between knuckleheads like Julianne Moore and Brent Metcalfe (nice, great guy that he is) and the one who "finds" God (putting aside the deeper fact that it is GOD who does the "finding") . . . is all in whether a person has an idol in their minds as to what, how, when etc., God should be and behave . . . versus the person who recognizes that God, being GOD, will be and behave just what, how, when etc., HE wills to.  "His will" not "thy" . . . be done.

Goats don't like it; sheep do.  Goats hate that God is God and they are not.  Sheep see the insanity of that attitude and submit to what the reality of the situation is, GOD is God.

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Brent Metcalfe, Julianne Moore: Toddler Talk From Hell

[This really is a continuing of my thoughts, in a sense,  responding to "smalls", with some related rambling along for the ride. . . .]
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“The idea that you’re the center of your own narrative and that you can create your life is a great idea . . . I totally believe it. I’ve been really lucky, but I feel I’ve completely created my own life.”  --from recent interview from actress Julianne Moore

 “Structure, it’s all imposed. We impose order and narrative on everything in order to understand it. Otherwise, there’s nothing but chaos.”  --more God-hating inane self love from Moore

I recently listened to a 3 hour long interview with Brent Metcalfe on the popular "Mormon Stories Podcast".  [Brent is a long-time, well known Mormon-history researcher, now excommunicated and an agnostic, who was also very close to the whole Mark Hofmann forgery/Mormon Murders event in the late 1980s.]

An intelligent, likeable guy, Brent's worldview and personal philosophy is much the same as Julianne Moore's, since he realized the Mormon Church was built on a fiction made up by Joseph Smith.

Brent expounded on his "born again" moment when he says he realized (I'm paraphrasing) that, "there's no One there.  We are on our own . . . to make of our lives and reality what we will.  The JOURNEY is the thing.  It's all about 'the journey', that's it.  We must develop our own meaning and everybody is on that 'journey'--their own 'journey'."

Brent described how the tragic events surrounding the Mark Hofmann bombings/murders caused him to question the very existence of God.  If there is a God, why didn't He warn the victims or others that tragedy was about to take place?  Paraphrasing, he said, "If God can't tell us important things, like when a murder or accident is about to take place, why should we care what He says about little things, like where the Book of Mormon took place geographically?!"

And here we see the common reaction many people have when they wonder why there is evil in the world--suffering--and why God doesn't stop it.  (Because, I guess it is just too taxing mentally to consider that God might have a very good reason for permitting suffering and evil, eh?)

Other than having the attitude/"worldview" of Belief, I would say this is THE default philosophical position of most people to varying degrees.

 . . . .And it is replete with so much childish, small-minded, self-centered illogic and arrogance . . . that I find myself marvelling at the extent of the deleterious noetic effects of the Fall upon mankind.

BUT, I must add, I've been there myself, and but for the grace of God, I too would be just as blind, shallow and infantile in my thinking.

Still showing His Mormon mystical conditioning, Brent emphasized (I'm paraphrasing) that "it's all about feeling. . . . What a relief it was to realize that there is no (God) to answer to and that I am free to make my own meaning and journey according to what I FEEL is right for me."  (He recounts one time going to the temple, doing "work for the dead" and not "feeling" anything spiritual afterwards.  No "feeling" in the Mormon spiritual experience means . . . no spiritual "truth.")

Anyway, I think I've heard that one before.  The part where Brent extols how it's all about creating meaning and purpose for yourself--the "journey"--according to how it makes you feel.  Aleister Crowley popularized it in his Luciferian injunction, "Do what thou wilt, is the whole of the law."  Witches, who fancy themselves of the "white" variety extol a version:  "Do what you want, just don't harm anyone."

This is pretty much the modern, secular-humanist moral by-phrase by which they would order themselves and society.  "The goal in life, for yourself, for the world, is to alleviate suffering and reduce harm.  There is no God to answer to--YOU are your own God; now do what you want, just try not to harm anybody."

And what is so wrong with this guiding principle, besides being derived from a toddler-like intellectual capacity?  What is the defect in Julianne and Brent's brave new vision besides being embarrassingly self-centered, logically fallacious (as it "begs the question"), as old as the hills and exasperatingly pompous and presumptuous?

Well, that it is also so obviously THE VERY doctrine of the devil that kicked-off the whole corruption of the world, when it was first stated, "Did God really say? . . . You don't have to answer to Him.  YOU can be your own god!  Rebel!"

So, Brent has made "the journey" his god.  But "the journey" to where?  Oh, he would say, it doesn't really matter--that's the point.  It's not the destination, it's all about the "journey". . . .

How convenient.  And vapid. 

"Journey":  an act of travelling from one place to another.

Here we have more evidence of a muddled, unregenerate mind.  The word "journey" specifically means to be going from one place to another.  Yet, Brent can't tell you where he's going on his "journey".  In fact, it doesn't really matter, so long as it feels good along the way.  The way to where?  Doesn't matter, "it's all about the journey."

Which, like all of agnostic/atheistic, secular-humanist "reasoning" ends up helplessly self-refuting.  It's nonsense . . . gibberish . . . pseudo-intellectual mush . . . splattered from minds adrift in the tossing sea of emotion-driven subjectivity.

And what is "harm"?  What is this "do what thou wilt, just do no harm"?  Who defines "harm"?  Again, from these knuckleheads, it's all subjective, relative.  They have no objective, absolute standard (that would be GOD!) who can tell them just what "harm" is, and thus, just what is to be avoided, or, on the other hand, promoted.

Is it harmful to say to a child, "no you cannot eat all the candy you want.  No, you cannot have every single toy that you see."  From the child's perspective, yes.  From the love of the parent, no it is not harmful to say "no" but is actually in the best interests of the child's mental and physical health.

Is pain a "harm" to be avoided?  Not when you're sticking your head in a bonfire and about to get 3rd degree burns BUT FOR the pain, the "harm" that results (thank God) to your skin to prevent you from bursting into potentially fatal flames.

It's an old saw but it works:  The Nazi's thought Jews, Christians and the disabled were a "harm" to the positive evolution of human society and biology.  To prevent the "harm" of these "inferiors" from infecting the "superman" ideal, the pink, Nazi elite decided extermination was the way to go.  Were they wrong?  The Soviet communists tormented and murdered many millions more who they considered a "harm" to the great march of social/political evolution.  Their "journey" FELT right to them.  Were they wrong?

The one who "doesn't have to answer to God anymore" cannot say they were "wrong", except from their own opinion.  The Soviets' opinion disagreed.  Who's right?  Without an absolute standard; without a God Who has all knowledge and Who IS the standard of what is "right" and "wrong" we are left with a world of chaos, except where "might makes the 'right'". 

But the self-centered, "I just want what FEELS good to me" toddler-intellects can't think that far.  Well, they CAN, but they are blocked, they are blinded by their hatred of God, of The Authority.  They are in rebellion and so, close their eyes to the truth.  They must go further and say, "there is no truth" . . . there is only "what's true for you."

. . . .Pure, unhinged, feeling-tossed, floundering subjectivity.  Arbitrariness.  Feet planted firmly in mid-air.

The difference . . . in all of this mess . . . and the difference between the devil's doctrine of "be your own god", which is a lying delusion . . . versus being able to see the truth of God and the reality of the situation . . . is where you start your thinking from.  That's what separates the men from the boys, the goats from the sheep.

If you start from your self, which is ridiculously limited, finite, influenced and formed by present societal norms, taboos, directives etc., then you will never be able to think or reason your self to seeing the truth.  Not only are your thoughts and emotions only capable of reaching just to the limited boundaries of whatever information you've acquired or been fed, but they are hopelessly corrupted by your own selfish interests, whatever egalitarian gloss you attempt to smear over them.  There is no greater racket than declaring to be acting in the interest of others as all the while you're really benefitting your self (even if it's just to feel better in the process).  But there is only one Being Who is in a position to declare what is truly right and wrong--what ultimately results in "harm" or not--and Who can determine and judge whether a "journey" has any ultimate meaning and purpose or not.

And that has to be a Being who has all knowledge, all goodness, all justice--PERFECTION even--Who knows the end from the beginning, because He designed and controls the whole thing.

Only when you start from HIS perspective, from HIS directives . . . can you have any hope to see The Truth of things.  YOU don't have all the knowledge of the universe, of life and death, of extended and final consequences in order to know what is actually "harm" in any ultimately meaningful sense.  But HE does.  And He has spoken!  He has laid it out sufficiently so that, beginning with HIS wisdom, HIS light, HIS absolute perfection and knowledge, there IS a way to know and follow which is RIGHT! 

Although it comes in a gentle, amiable voice, can you fathom the arrogance--the hubris in a statement like that of Brent Metcalfe's which demands, "God, you have to warn me of harm, in the time and way that I want, or you are worthless to me!"  Is it really that difficult to comprehend that God, Who is all knowing, all powerful . . . might have very good and (eternally) important reasons to allow suffering and tragedy to take place sometimes in our short mortal lives in this world?  You actually mean to tell me, that you, with your finite, emotional, myopic, narrow, human point-of-view have the audacity to question and demand of the Creator of the universe and of all that is, that He jump when you say "jump"; and tailor His eternal plans to your need or wish of a moment?  Are you seriously that delusional?--that immature in your thinking, if you could even call it "thinking". . . ?

No, the fact is, you are a brat.  You are a self-seeking, petulant, rebellious toddler who wants what YOU want and God's WANT be damned!  Instead, you'll go with that other guy--the one who tells you to forget the "Big Tyrant" and become your own boss!

"I feel I've completely created my own life!"  miss Moore proclaims exultantly.
"What a relief to realize there is no One there; that I don't have to answer to some God," Brent coos.

"Yes, It's all about the 'journey'", says the 'angel of light'.  "Destinations?  Pshaw!  It's all about how you feel right now, what floats your boat as you make your own 'journey'.  Forget that heaven and hell stuff.  That's 'destination' talk.  That's bully talk.  That's just patriarchy, hierarchy propaganda--'religion' stuff! Now that Julianne Moore--what a doll!--SHE'S got the right idea.  Completely 'create your own life' like she did!  (What a girl.  An example for women everywhere, making her own way!)  What a relief it is to give up that old notion that you have to answer to some ultimate Authority.  Just answer to your self, that's the ticket!  Then you're 'on a journey', like Brent Metcalfe says.  You've got a ticket and you're on a fantastic journey!  Wonderful!  To where?  Doesn't matter, it's all about the 'journey.'  Consequences . . . destinations . . . pshaw!  That's fear tactics, that's 'religion', just dead old white men and dead old Jews trying to control you.  'Equality, fraternity, liberty'--now THAT'S what we want and what we'll have, once we get rid of this whole, old-fashioned Jesus thing.  Do what thou wilt, is the whole of the law.  Capeesh?"



Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Fwiw, latest vid perusals.....

While such interesting info is still available, before they get "net neutrality" in place (to destroy net neutrality) here are just a couple of greatest hits vids I've been able to check out whilst off working, catching up on things....Any one of them is worth the time to check out, fwiw.....


Shackleton/ Human Endurance
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oyQRHHHXntc

whistleblower911
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=68LUHa_-OlA

Bigfoot/g-stalking
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TwD77DtgJpQ

Fractals/God's Code of Creation
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nkwCl0ymTfg

aliens/Nephilim
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uF-F67OUEAw

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Quick Sidebar......

--quick little sidebar here. . . . I'm working late . . . out in the desert again.... and as usual listening to lots of interesting stuff I have recorded to put my mind to whilest my hands are busy . . . .

Btw, while I'm mentioning bona fide's . . . I listen to about 5-8 hours of new material every work day and have for the last . . . mmmm . . . 25 years or so . . . with a break in  there for some secular education, under grad and law school.  But as far as the current regime, it has been a steady dose of theological topics, philosophical, supernatural, political, historical . . . with an emphasis on the theological.  So, at the very least, I've got a pretty good scope of the landscape, so to speak.....fwiw.

I happened to dip back into my tapes of street preaching which I like to do from time to time and put on some Tony Miano of Cross Encounters.  There are many other good street preachers as well I like to check out . . . but one thing is common to the legit ones who are flat-out preaching the Gospel.  As sure as the Sun will rise again tomorrow, you can count on the public passersby and those who stop to listen . . . to become irate and start attacking.  Honestly, this phenomenon is one of the things that really sealed the deal for me in looking again at Biblical Christianity as being The Truth.  Why does the world hate Jesus so much?  It's just a little too over the top and obvious to me when I look at it.

Go out there and preach Buddha or Krisna . . . or Lao Tzu . . . or Rickard Dawkins . . . or Carl Sagan . . . or Ramakrishna, Vivekananda, Osho, Chogyam Trungpa, Black Elk, Terence McKenna, Rick Warren, Osteen, Che Guevara . . . and you'll get thumbs up, yawns, gentle nods and the like.  But start preaching Jesus and the Gospel and real Biblical Christianity . . . and ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE!  It's just too obvious, lol.

Why?  Because people love their sin.  People don't want to answer to an ultimate Authority.  People love their own ideas and pet theories about reality MORE than wanting to know what is actually The Truth.  People hate God.  People love their god's of their own mental and emotional creation.  People love excuses not to see the need to repent.  People don't think they need a Savior.  People love lies, love the dark, love themselves more than The Truth.  People don't want to submit--THEY want to be God, to be the God of their own reality.  People don't like the idea of consequences to their secret sins and privately wicked hearts.  People have a higher estimation of themselves than they deserve.  People hate the idea of Hell.  People hate the fact that God is Sovereign and He will do what He will.

Rebellion, rebellion, rebellion.  It all derives from the original sin of rejecting God, turning from Him and then turning to a thousand and one other things; not realizing that all those things are created.  They are ALL sub-God.  Yet people make idols of them and do everything they can to avoid worshipping and reverencing the One True God.

Check it out sometime.  Search "Street preacher and hecklers" and you will see the same anti-Christ spirit manifesting in a hundred different settings, from all over the world.  It is the same spirit that killed Jesus.  And it is the same spirit that is in each one of us until we finally see ourselves for the frauds, liars, murderers/haters, thieves, perverts etc, that we really are, whatever phony front we put up to the contrary. 

Then, when you at last see the situation for the direness it is, you know you NEED a Savior!  You realize that you can't even take one more breath but for the grace of God, let alone change yourself into something good and decent, compared to His standard.

And you stop arguing with the fact the HE gets to set the standard.  He IS the standard!  Not you.  Not any human. . . . You quit your vain arguing and prevaricating and slipping and sliding around The Truth and finally just submit, surrender.  You DIE to your self and throw what's left of you on His mercy.  You stop arguing whether that is "fair" or not.  You stop reasoning around in circles and clever philosophical mazes of nonsense which is all just a distraction to keep you from facing your dirty, rotten, fallen self.  And you thank God He sent a way out!  He made a way!  He IS merciful and loving and will take you from the admitted wretch you at last have a shred of integrity to face . . . and begins immediately to change your heart--regenerate your mind and clean up your soul!

You stop running from Him; you stop trying to find ways to have it both ways (maintaining the idol of your self AND God) . . . and you start losing your taste for lies, magic, demon-craft, power-trips, controlling etc., and begin craving light, truth, holiness, goodness--and any and everything that relates to His character, laws, grace, history, reality and Person.

That's the fact of it.

Stop screwing around and pursue Him as if your life depended on it, because it does.  And you know it.
God bless:)

Kindergarten Vs. The Advanced Course (re Smalls cont.)

[Sorry, just noticed that in the last post I forgot to add in smalls' original comment... it's there now and here below for context.]

Okay, where was I. . . .

Yeah, so I'm just saying, I commiserate with the binge/purge cycle.  Also the searching for an answer, THE answer to the "why" of this life.  I never really had any doubt that there was some sort of answer as I deduced that the very drive, compulsion, desire etc. to FIND an answer implied that there was an answer to be found.  I early on realized that the longings for meaning and purpose were of a transcendent, spiritual nature.  Purely physical chemical reactions, matter and energy would not "seek" meaning.  Plus, also early on I had what I knew to be undeniably "spiritual"  . . . or "supernatural" experiences that "told" me there was something to all of this and that it was worth searching out.

I remember one of many times especially being in that exasperated state begging God to reveal Himself to me.  I was on my grandfather's ranch near Pike's Peak Colorado . . . alone, riding a fine horse far up into the mountains.  I took the horse to a grove of scrub oak, dismounted and went in to pray.  By the end of my beseeching I was swinging a stick at the trees, screaming at the sky, near tears, saying, "GOD!  Please show me the way!  Reveal Yourself to me and I will wholly dedicate my life to You!  I believe in You but I can't find You!  I beg You to show me what is that "way" to go?!"

And then . . . silence.  Just more silence.  No answer. . . .

Discouraged, I got back on the horse and carried on, frustrated . . . and like you have expressed, gave up the search for a while, exhausted and a bit angry. . . .

Sometimes . . . now and again . . . I get well-meaning acquaintances or commenters . . . who, seeing my current beliefs and promotions (as being a classic, traditional Bible-believing, Reformed/Protestant Born Again Christian) warn me to beware of "religion" . . . "churches" . . . "the teachings of men" and they will offer me some alternative interpretations or "esoteric" doctrines that are suppose to be what it's REALLY all about . . . as if I have somehow just bumbled into some shallow "Christian" belief system and need to go a bit deeper to get the REAL truth. . . .

And what is always the case is that I'm treated to "esoteric" theories and occult doctrine that I was well steeped in, experienced deeply and fleshed out by the time I was about 17 years old.  I recite this brief spiritual journey history to reiterate once again, "been there, done it."  And NOT just casually.  I even at times ran with demons.  I astral projected.  I could read minds, see the future, control minds, manage extreme control over my "energy" and body through intense spiritual practices.  I've BEEN a gnostic, and pretty hard core one at that~!  I was 15 years old, for instance, when I was learning about the gnostic teaching that "Jesus" or "the Christ" is really an "office" or "station."  That "Jesus" was not necessarily special as an individual--but that the being who we know as "Jesus" was simply a "master" . . . an "avatar" who had achieved the "Christ" level of spiritual attainment.  I WAS 15 WHEN I ENCOUNTERED AND FLESHED OUT THAT So-Called "ESOTERIC" TEACHING! 

I have never been a "follower" and have never been inclined to just swallow what some guru, some church, some "religion" attempted to foist on me.  I've always been a critical thinker, analyzing, testing, studying.  I'm not boasting--it is just a fact--that I have been more intense and committed to the search for The Truth than anybody I've yet to meet.  I know there are others who've likewise gone to the brinks . . . I've read about them . . . but I really haven't met anyone personally who has spent the time and effort I have investigating every nook and cranny of the spiritual and philosophical landscape as deeply as I have.  And I only mention that to emphasize that I have not been tricked by "the church"; I have not been casually entrapped by the "teachings of men"; I am not someone who has EVER been unthinkingly enticed or deluded by "man-made religion" where I just went along with some set of beliefs merely because a bunch of other people believed and taught them as "true."

Like I say, what passes these days for "secret knowledge" . . . or "inner teaching" or any other glob of "new age" gnostic reinterpreting of what the Bible or Jesus are supposedly REALLY all about . . . is stuff I encountered and dealt with when I was a seeking teenager, about 38 years ago.  That was kindergarten stuff.   Those in ignorance and under the spell of the demonic like to portray Born-Again "Biblical" theology as being childish and simplistic, but it is actually the reverse.  Gnosticism in all its various forms is nothing but the "doctrines of demons."  And entry-level doctrine at that.  As a clue, you can always spot it when the purveyor of such teachings diminishes Who Jesus is and disparages or marginalizes the Word of God--the Bible.   When I was under its sway, I too thought that Christianity and Bible-based doctrine was simplistic, shallow and mostly man-made.

Then I Saw the Light.

And it didn't come from "religion" or "Christianese" promulgators or from some charismatic preacher.  It came from God Himself, from the Holy Spirit, from the Creator of all that is, Who we know as Jesus, the Messiah.

Now, since He teaches in His Word that "belief" or "faith" is a gift . . . I know I can't really lay out an argument that will necessarily cause you or anyone to finally "believe."  Yet, that is exactly what needs to happen, as I wrote it in the post Smalls responded to.  BUT, God has chosen the weak things of this world--His broken, flawed devotees--to be the means by which He sets up the divine giving of the gift of faith.  Something can happen in the mere HEARING of The Truth via the mouth of a Witness--a Believer--that can kick the Born Again experience into gear.  This is how the Holy Spirit, Who shows and testifies to The Truth, usually does His work in the seeker.

At the same time, it is just not the case that it is meant for ALL to be given the gift of belief.  Some simply can't and won't be able.  Some are of their father the devil and to him they will go.

[I have more to say. . . . Back in a bit. . . . May God grant you and any others who yet seek, the gift of faith, which is the gift of Life, which is the gift of fellowship with the Creator, which is the greatest gift that can be received. . . . God bless you.]




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smalls said...
Hi. I used to read this blog regularly but stopped a couple of years ago. The faith I thought I had was beginning to crumble, and the cynicism I harbored toward the world started to go increasingly in the direction of Christianity.

I never thought I had much faith, though I wanted so much to be secure in the knowledge and love of God. As a child I believed, simply. Couldn't really bring myself to 'accept Christ' until the end of high school, partly because of the crap I'd been taught about not sinning anymore after you're saved else you're eternally screwed. I finally said 'the prayer' one day. It was unexpectedly emotional, and afterwards I felt like I was getting a handle on things. I read the Bible, prayed, sinned, 'repented'... all the while I never felt like I had a relationship with Jesus, with God. There were synchronicities, the Bible seemed like a living book sometimes, and I convinced myself that I was getting sustenance in times of unbelief. For a long time I was stuck in the endless cycle of 'binge and purge', giving in to my natural urges and then begging forgiveness, over and over and.. it was this blog, along with Zeph Daniel's audios and other stuff from like-minded, that really encouraged me and gave me what I thought was a solid understanding of the Gospel. I read this quote here on your blog, I believe, from F. Fenelon:

"Thus it is not by incessant care that we become faithful and exact in the smallest things, but simply by a love which is free from the reflections and fears of restless and scrupulous souls."

That really stuck with me, and I felt I finally was able to let go of trying so hard to be a Christian and rest in the simple knowledge of God's love and sovereignty. I still love that quote, but no longer in a Christian context.

There were many things that led to the death of my faith. I dunnno, maybe I still have a tiny spark somewhere, and that's why I'm writing this. I used to fancy, when I experienced almost none of the awesome things that I'd been assured would happen after I got saved, that I was just being tested, that perhaps I would be one of the "blessed, who have not seen and yet have believed". That thought helped for a while.

About a year ago I kind of decided to take a break from the whole Jesus thing. I've been trying to simply live life, without the constant Christianese chatter in my head. Obviously, I haven't been able to turn it off completely. If I'm honest, probably one of the biggest reasons I keep looking back is fear of the future. I should know better, having seen so many dire predictions end up being dust in the wind. At least I no longer have a nauseating fear of hell. That part of my faith I don't miss. What I do miss is the surety (even in doubt) that I have the Truth and that God's got me. But I'm okay being in limbo, as it were. No pressure to 'measure up', to read the Word and pray, to listen to 'good preachin''. I realize that much of what I am leaving is nothing more than a perversion of Jesus' teachings, promulgated by men who are either ignorant of the meaning of grace or simply out to make a buck using tried-and-true methods of emotional manipulation. I don't know if I'm ready to sift through the b.s. to try to find something worth keeping. So for now, I'm letting go.

Thanks for reading. I would appreciate your thoughts on my sitch, either here in the comments or on the blog if you'd like.

smalls

Saturday, January 24, 2015

The Gravity of the Situation (re "Smalls" cont.)


(Response to Smalls cont.)
Sorry to those who've read this all before but in the context of my responses I just want to reiterate the point that I have come to faith through and after a long and deep exploration and study of many different so-called "paths".  As in, I didn't just read a book on something like Zen or Buddhism or Sufism . . . or attend a couple of World Religion courses in college. . . . I delved into the teachings, the history and sincerely put to practice the methods and doctrines taught by each "faith's" leading proponents and teachers.  I went far enough into most of the spiritual philosophies and practices I studied to "test their fruits"--to realize experientially what each had to offer spiritually.  I went all in. 

These would include the more existential types like Zen, Zen Buddhism, Buddhism, Taoism and others like Sufism, Bhakti Yoga, Jnana Yoga, Advaita Vedanta, Shamanism, Gnosticism, Tantra, Vaishnavism, Vedanta, "Urantia-ism", "Swedenborgian", Spiritualism, Mormonism, dualistic, non-dualistic, and a few more obscure others.  I mention this only to emphasize that my coming to a Reformed, Born-Again, Bible-based Christian faith was not done casually, incidentally, culturally or without much thought and previous spiritual experience.

Early on, as a boy and early teen, I experienced God and had no doubt that He existed and that there was more to this life than the mere workings of physical chemicals, matter, energy, chance ("naturalism") etc.  The question became, "since I know there IS a God and discern and believe that there is indeed primarily a spiritual purpose to this life, which thus has ramifications for me in the hereafter . . . then certainly He must have provided a "way" a "religion" or some guidebook, revelation or program that's intended for the seeker to pursue Him/It and produce character/spiritual growth and development.  Oh, I also went into those teachings and "paths" that say that there really is no "purpose" other than, for instance to just "be" . . . in the "here and now" and that ie., the "answer" is that there IS no "answer" to be gleaned in an intellectual, rational sense.  But my spirit testified to me that yes, there IS a purpose AND surely He has provided a means to find and be close to Him, such that . . . at last I could say, 'aha! I have found The Truth!  This is now what I am to do, to be."

And no, I do not for a moment accept the canard offered up by so many critics, cynics, atheists and the like who assert that people like me and other believers just want to find an easy answer, believe in a God because we can't handle the idea of their being really no ultimate meaning, purpose, truth.  It is clear to me, from study and experience, that it is much easier and preferable to my earthly, human self to decide that there is no God and that it all just ends at death; that no One is "watching", no One--no God is there to care or finally judge the thoughts and actions of my lived life.  I find, just like every other fallen human, I am naturally inclined to cheat, lie, lust, manipulate, seek power and position, be selfish etc.  And it would be much easier if--although inclined also to nobility, forthrightness, selflessness, integrity--I thought I could basically live however I decided to, according to my fancy or inspiration of the moment, without any worry that someday . . . I will have to account for it all.

Interestingly (to me at least) I must say that fear of Hell or eternal punishment was never a driving concern through all my initial searching.  According to my own reason and sentiment . . . I simply did not believe that God--Whoever He turned out to be, according to whatever "path" of doctrine or revelation--would be something like a person who would send, for instance, sincere seekers and people in general to eternal Hell and punishment, except perhaps in the most egregious cases.  I did not continue to search and study and practice because of fear of Hell.  I persisted on the quest for Truth more simply because I believed that God was real . . . and I believed He surely must have provided some way for sincere seekers to genuinely find and relate to Him--to be able, according to His prescriptions, to please Him and expand in spiritual knowledge and capacity.  For many good reasons, I deduced that He must be a God of rationality, logic, love, consistency etc., and it only followed that He gave us a way, a "path" which we could finally find and follow, according to this all being the purpose for which we were made.  In general I believed that it was enough, even if you were mistaken in the choice of your "path", so long as you were "sincere", God would ultimately bring you in.  [I have since learned that no one really IS sincere, even if that were to work, and that being so-called "sincere" in your search is not what brings you in to the Family of God.  Such thinking is but a trick of the carnal mind to be able to persist in willful sin.]

For most of the time (pre-Born Again) I believed in things like reincarnation or eternal progression being the likely options pertaining to any "hereafter".  Do I believe in Hell now?  Yes.  It came about initially because I had prayed to God that He give me a greater "heart for the lost".  I asked Him to please instill in me and/or show me why it was so important that people get "saved."  At the time, if anything, although I was at last a Born Again follower of Jesus Christ, I still did not much think of or concern myself with the concept and teaching of Hell.  I suppose I had a kind of "nihilism" conception of what was at stake.  That is, if you do not care enough to find and submit to God, or just love your self and the world more, then eventually, He will answer your inclination and deprive you of eternal life with Him through your final death and annihilation. 

But as I sincerely had prayed to be shown the importance and imbuement, as a Christian, to "have a heart for the lost", I started to get a Response.  What He began showing me . . . was Hell.  It was not what I expected nor what I was looking for.  I didn't much believe in the traditional concept of Hell and eternal punishment and had more been expecting Him to show me something like just how much better and fantastic it is to be a believer . . . and/or the glories of Heaven and eternal life etc.  THAT'S what drove the passionate "heart for the lost."

Instead, I was led into a study of the concept, reality and teachings about Hell, given in the Bible, given by scholarly and inspired experts, and most importantly, by Jesus Himself!

One of the most profound and clear things I learned in this . . . was why people have such a dismissive and cynical view of the Christian idea of Hell; and why they can't See it or accept it and consider it simplistic, childish even.

And it is because of a couple things. People do not come near appreciating or comprehending the Holiness of God for one, especially in contrast to OUR fallen, depraved nature.  Also, they do not realize just how serious sin is, if they believe in sin at all or not.  And they do not comprehend how serious and profound is/was the rebellion and rebellion in general against this Holy, perfect God.
They project their own, very narrow, shallow, corrupt conceptions of "holiness" . . . "sin" . . . "rebellion" . . . "selfishness" . . . "good" and "evil" . . . and are as far from realizing the severity, meaning and ramifications of this spiritual contrast as an ant is able to realize, for instance, rocket propulsion. . . .

and . . . . . I gotta run for now... back in a bit . . .  [is this interesting to anyone? should I continue? just wonder sometimes:).... well, and anyhow, I will continue because I do want to respond to Smalls....]
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smalls said...
Hi. I used to read this blog regularly but stopped a couple of years ago. The faith I thought I had was beginning to crumble, and the cynicism I harbored toward the world started to go increasingly in the direction of Christianity.

I never thought I had much faith, though I wanted so much to be secure in the knowledge and love of God. As a child I believed, simply. Couldn't really bring myself to 'accept Christ' until the end of high school, partly because of the crap I'd been taught about not sinning anymore after you're saved else you're eternally screwed. I finally said 'the prayer' one day. It was unexpectedly emotional, and afterwards I felt like I was getting a handle on things. I read the Bible, prayed, sinned, 'repented'... all the while I never felt like I had a relationship with Jesus, with God. There were synchronicities, the Bible seemed like a living book sometimes, and I convinced myself that I was getting sustenance in times of unbelief. For a long time I was stuck in the endless cycle of 'binge and purge', giving in to my natural urges and then begging forgiveness, over and over and.. it was this blog, along with Zeph Daniel's audios and other stuff from like-minded, that really encouraged me and gave me what I thought was a solid understanding of the Gospel. I read this quote here on your blog, I believe, from F. Fenelon:

"Thus it is not by incessant care that we become faithful and exact in the smallest things, but simply by a love which is free from the reflections and fears of restless and scrupulous souls."

That really stuck with me, and I felt I finally was able to let go of trying so hard to be a Christian and rest in the simple knowledge of God's love and sovereignty. I still love that quote, but no longer in a Christian context.

There were many things that led to the death of my faith. I dunnno, maybe I still have a tiny spark somewhere, and that's why I'm writing this. I used to fancy, when I experienced almost none of the awesome things that I'd been assured would happen after I got saved, that I was just being tested, that perhaps I would be one of the "blessed, who have not seen and yet have believed". That thought helped for a while.

About a year ago I kind of decided to take a break from the whole Jesus thing. I've been trying to simply live life, without the constant Christianese chatter in my head. Obviously, I haven't been able to turn it off completely. If I'm honest, probably one of the biggest reasons I keep looking back is fear of the future. I should know better, having seen so many dire predictions end up being dust in the wind. At least I no longer have a nauseating fear of hell. That part of my faith I don't miss. What I do miss is the surety (even in doubt) that I have the Truth and that God's got me. But I'm okay being in limbo, as it were. No pressure to 'measure up', to read the Word and pray, to listen to 'good preachin''. I realize that much of what I am leaving is nothing more than a perversion of Jesus' teachings, promulgated by men who are either ignorant of the meaning of grace or simply out to make a buck using tried-and-true methods of emotional manipulation. I don't know if I'm ready to sift through the b.s. to try to find something worth keeping. So for now, I'm letting go.

Thanks for reading. I would appreciate your thoughts on my sitch, either here in the comments or on the blog if you'd like.

smalls

Friday, January 23, 2015

Response To "Smalls"

I am responding here to a long comment "smalls" made in my "Many Mansions...." post.  See his comment below for context.
Btw, thanks Smalls for checking back in.  I well recall you and am glad to hear from you.  Also thanks for the honest recitation of your spiritual situation and . . . I would say challenge of sorts.  I wish I got more questions and/or challenges or semi-querying expressions of doubt and dubiousness re Christian faith.

There is a lot in there I am eager to address.  For one thing, I can relate to most of it.  For instance, the "binge-purge" cycle.  Boy oh boy do I remember that one.  My binges and purges were often in the extreme.  I've always had an affinity towards asceticism--austerities and the "self-denying" monk life . . . and was quite serious in my practices.  I use to meditate for hours, fasted, prayed . . . and at one point "renounced the world", became a "sannyasin" (a "renunciate") giving away virtually all my worldly belongings and totally dedicated myself only to the path of "seeking God."  And not just for a week or so or for an especially inspired day here and there.  No, I did it for months, years at a time.  Then I would be spiritually exhausted . . . discouraged at my lack of progress for so much "work" and would turn myself over with abandon to immersion into worldly pleasures, little to no self control, anything goes libertinism. . . .

And I began these dedicated cycles quite young, beginning about age 13-14. The sentiment I had, which I think I see as similar to yours . . . was something like this:  I sincerely wanted God, wanted to know The Truth, having deduced and assumed that there must BE a Truth and purpose to life . . . (although I did spend a good deal of time also in the Zen and related paths of "purposeless purpose", transcendental existentialism etc.) and I expected that through my efforts and sincerity God should certainly eventually make it all clear to me . . . but that, when He didn't to my satisfaction, I got frustrated, angry even, and thus plunged the other way, figuring, "oh well, if You are not going to answer me then I might as well give in to other side--at least HE DOES want to take me places) . . . but then after a spell of debauchery self-seeking a faint recall would come back in and draw me back to searching, and I would try something else . . . and on and on it would go.  There were indeed times where I seriously threw up my hands and just said, "I give up.  What will be will be," and I just drifted, not bothering at all to seek or work at "finding the Truth" anymore. 

One thing I never did though, was doubt the existence of God.  I just at times figured maybe I was just not good enough to please Him long enough so that He would come get me . . . or, I figured that perhaps He was just too beyond all comprehension and systemizing into any form of religion or "path".  I never doubted He or It or "The One" or "The Tao" or Whatever/Whoever existed; and I never completely stopped communicating to Him, whether I felt or heard and answer or not.  Long periods of time might go by where I didn't think of Him or seeking spiritual truths . . . but I never doubted He was omniscient, omnipresent and omnipotent, and that He could here me when I addressed Him, whether He deigned to respond or not.

[And ARGH my eslipses/period button on my computer is dying! which...which is horrible because I use it so much in my blog writing . .   . . . . . .! I might have to start using comma's , , , lol, , , , ]

Anyway, that's just a beginning of my response... gotta run but will back to continue asap and thanks again Smalls for writing me, whatever the reason or not, and as I respond if my thought bring up any other objections, questions, I would enjoy the engagement if it so happens.  I know your sentiment expressed is something that a lot of seeker types can relate to.   . . .  ,,,,,,,,,,:)


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smalls said...
Hi. I used to read this blog regularly but stopped a couple of years ago. The faith I thought I had was beginning to crumble, and the cynicism I harbored toward the world started to go increasingly in the direction of Christianity.

I never thought I had much faith, though I wanted so much to be secure in the knowledge and love of God. As a child I believed, simply. Couldn't really bring myself to 'accept Christ' until the end of high school, partly because of the crap I'd been taught about not sinning anymore after you're saved else you're eternally screwed. I finally said 'the prayer' one day. It was unexpectedly emotional, and afterwards I felt like I was getting a handle on things. I read the Bible, prayed, sinned, 'repented'... all the while I never felt like I had a relationship with Jesus, with God. There were synchronicities, the Bible seemed like a living book sometimes, and I convinced myself that I was getting sustenance in times of unbelief. For a long time I was stuck in the endless cycle of 'binge and purge', giving in to my natural urges and then begging forgiveness, over and over and.. it was this blog, along with Zeph Daniel's audios and other stuff from like-minded, that really encouraged me and gave me what I thought was a solid understanding of the Gospel. I read this quote here on your blog, I believe, from F. Fenelon:

"Thus it is not by incessant care that we become faithful and exact in the smallest things, but simply by a love which is free from the reflections and fears of restless and scrupulous souls."

That really stuck with me, and I felt I finally was able to let go of trying so hard to be a Christian and rest in the simple knowledge of God's love and sovereignty. I still love that quote, but no longer in a Christian context.

There were many things that led to the death of my faith. I dunnno, maybe I still have a tiny spark somewhere, and that's why I'm writing this. I used to fancy, when I experienced almost none of the awesome things that I'd been assured would happen after I got saved, that I was just being tested, that perhaps I would be one of the "blessed, who have not seen and yet have believed". That thought helped for a while.

About a year ago I kind of decided to take a break from the whole Jesus thing. I've been trying to simply live life, without the constant Christianese chatter in my head. Obviously, I haven't been able to turn it off completely. If I'm honest, probably one of the biggest reasons I keep looking back is fear of the future. I should know better, having seen so many dire predictions end up being dust in the wind. At least I no longer have a nauseating fear of hell. That part of my faith I don't miss. What I do miss is the surety (even in doubt) that I have the Truth and that God's got me. But I'm okay being in limbo, as it were. No pressure to 'measure up', to read the Word and pray, to listen to 'good preachin''. I realize that much of what I am leaving is nothing more than a perversion of Jesus' teachings, promulgated by men who are either ignorant of the meaning of grace or simply out to make a buck using tried-and-true methods of emotional manipulation. I don't know if I'm ready to sift through the b.s. to try to find something worth keeping. So for now, I'm letting go.

Thanks for reading. I would appreciate your thoughts on my sitch, either here in the comments or on the blog if you'd like.

smalls

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Scouting Report Fleshed Out

 It's like this.  The scout is out front, peeking over a butte looking down with a silent gasp, having just come upon the enemy's stronghold.  It is a shocking and dispiriting sight.  He takes in the full view, analyzing, looking at the array, the multitude of weaponry and assets and then rushes back to tell his people the news.  When he arrives back at his own camp he is out of breath, alarmed and dismayed with the vision of what he has just seen still so fresh in his eyes and mind--the ramifications thereof.

That is the mood in which I wrote the last post.  I am less distraught now, though not because of any more optimistic reappraisal, but from having more distance and time away from what I saw.

Here's the gist of it.  What happened (or is happening now to) actress Brittney Murphy & her husband, her friend whistle-blower Julia Davis .  . to Randy Quid and his wife, journalist Sharyl Attkisson, Catherine Engelbrecht (tea party), bigfoot researcher Bob Garrett, David Crowley ("Grey State")and is happening to increasingly more average citizens who find themselves T.I.'s ("Targeted Individuals")?

In my once annual MayDay appearance on Zeph Daniel's podcast, May of 2008 I talked about the "global gang-stalking syndicate" and in the early days of my blog warned that this means would be used to eventually control all of society, to suppress dissent.  What I am saying now is it looks to me like they have the program fully in place and can reach it into any far corner of the land.  There is nowhere to hide.  They are even installing military grade sensors and cameras in the National parks and out in the wilderness.  Seriously, Big Brother is watching.  And he is ready and able at a simple command . . . to make the life of any dissenter, "free thinker", "patriot" etc., a truly living hell.

Home schooling, refusing vaccines, "constitutionalist" protesting, "traditional values", Bible believers, "preppers", alternative health purveyors, and so on . . . . are some of the common targets, and I believe that eventually the army of these harassing agents is so large, so ubiquitous--and the technology so advanced and pervasive . . . that "they" will eventually get to practically everyone.  They have to target enough people so that, if you yourself are not targeted, you know somebody who is and have seen it in action.  This will act to scare everybody targeted or not into line.

They are also in the last stages of rooting out any old fashioned, traditional police/sheriff officers who might be of help to the targeted person.  They themselves (the good police) are coming under attack!  That is how bold and operating with impunity this infiltrated cabal has become.  They are beyond the tipping point where they could have been stopped.  That is what I "saw" which me as it did--just how widespread and vicious this mode of social control is.  This is the KGB with steroideded technology--and what the East German Stasi began to perfect in its later days.  Another change that I see is that where they at first tested it out on fringe people--homeless, single women, men who often had no agenda themselves--now they are using it in a more focused way on "whistleblowers", activists, and the generally "politically incorrect".

And I must admit, at times like these, I am glad we have a God of judgment and justice who will deal harshly with the wicked--with these wicked, and that, as believers ... we've got to just stay the course.
I like to recall sometimes ... that the God of the New Testament is the same God Who delivered justice in the Old Testament.

(and yes, BonBon...I have mentioned that many times and pointed to snail mail address there on my blog as I hope to keep that as long as possible for just such a reason:)

Monday, January 19, 2015

Scouting Report

ooh boy . . . I'm not quite sure just what to say.  A lot is going on and things are ramping up exponentially.  I s'pose I'm a kind of like a scout.  Watchman?  Well, maybe more like a scout, because I go out ahead.  I'm always on the move, studying, researching, watching, experiencing--I can't really help it; it's just the way I was made.  We've all got our inclinations, interests, compulsions . . . eh?

And I'd dare say I'm a bit of a tracker, so-to-speak.  Whilst out "scouting" . . . I seem to have a knack--a sort of extra sense on which trail to follow--to where the game actually is.  Then . . . to connect the dots, coordinate the signs, see the big picture and be able to fairly well tell where its all leading. . . . My accuracy speaks for itself.

In this case, honestly I'm a little spooked by the picture I'm seeing.  I happen to have been immersed lately in reading in depth accounts of the "wild west"--particularly the recounts of the American Indian wars, the related explorers, mountain men, pioneers etc.  Continuing with that sort of imagery and metaphor . . . let me just say it's kind of like this:  We are surrounded.  During the night, the enemy has crept into position while the camp was mostly asleep.  The outlying sentries and random camp hangers-on . . . are starting to be picked off.  They are being isolated and quietly taken out.  This is what happens in a seriously intended deadly assault when you have a determined, long-planning, stealthy enemy who has specific designs for conquest.

There is also a palpable malignancy and downright wicked stench to this infiltrating and surrounding force.  They are organized, insidious, conscience-less and operating with arrogant, cruel impunity.

Where it use to be mostly and only those other watchman types who were aware of and under assault by these quiet assassins . . . the ring of targets is now getting closer in and more varied.  By that I mean that it is no longer a fringe thing.  If we were a herd . . . and where it had once been only those on the far edges that were taken down by the shadowy, lurking predators . . . now some of those further in from the boundary of the herd . . . are starting to sense something, poking their heads up and likewise coming under attack--and being knocked off. 

So  . . .  there I've laid out a picture--an analogy in very general terms  . . . and am wondering just what to do with the rest of it.  What to say, how to say it? . . . . Ironically    . . . while it has nothing specifically to do with bigfoot, it turns out that some stuff is happening in the bigfoot community (they don't really even know what's hitting them) that is putting into perspective just how much of a lockdown situation we are actually in and don't know it.  Well . . . some know it . . . and more are getting to, sadly, every day.

Think Stasi . . . East Germany . . . surveillance state . . . psychotronic-technological harassment . . . g-stalking . . . on a massive scale.  What's gone before has been child's play--a warm up.  They are getting serious now . . . and it is a very ugly, sad, wicked thing we are into here which won't, I'm afraid, be being turned around any time soon.  Looks like we're going through it . . . and it's begun.

Get right with God; stay right with God.  Pray up. Stay close to His Spirit--make way in your soul so that the Spirit is not grieved and can be a constant, comforting inhabitant.  Outside of that--outside of Him, it is going to seem quite hopeless.  They intend to crush all hope, all morale . .   with overwhelming cunning, control ,,, and yes, cruelty and brutality.

Sorry to be so bleak, but just want to be real and give the heads up.  I still expect that this quick and easy exchange of information and communication that we've all gotten use to ... will not always be there . .  and so you've got to be prepared to cope when the isolation and darkness falls.
take care,
b,t

Sunday, January 18, 2015

The Toxic Stew. . . .

Going hand in hand with the necessity of maintaining spiritual health in these dark times is the importance of getting and keeping physical health.  As we are being poisoned on all sides (deliberately and inadvertently) it is practically a full time job taking cover and defending. . . .

Two of the most dangerous assaults I believe come from early delivered vaccines and the toxin "glyphosate."  Before our first boy was born (Alexander) I was already aware of and suspicious of infant vaccines (ie., the MMR vaccine) and managed to prevent for as long as possible the giving of such vaccines to our little boys until it was mandatory by the state.  Except . . . in Isaac's case (the one son who ended with Aspergers and registers on the so-called "autism spectrum").  He was born in Florida and when we weren't present, just after he was born the nurses--we found out later--had whisked him away and given him the newborn vaccines that we had managed to avoid with the other boys.  I am convinced that is what caused his "disability."



Anyway, besides infant vaccines, I believe one of the other great causes of what seems to be now a ubiquitous set of diseases, "conditions" and general illness among people is from glyphosate toxicity.  Almost everybody I know now has developed one or more vicious "food allergies" or intolerances and knows somebody else close who suffers from being on some degree of the "autistic spectrum".

Glyphosate is an herbicide component used by "Big Agra"--included in the tons and tons of Roundup "weed killer" spray that is now found throughout the GMO food chain.

"Glyphosate may well be the most toxic chemical ever approved for commercial use, as it is now linked to kidney disease, antibiotic resistant bacteria, inflammatory bowel disease, obesity, depression, ADHD, autism, Alzheimer’s disease, Parkinson’s disease, ALS, multiple sclerosis, cancer, cachexia, infertility, and developmental malformations. It destroys the microbiome of humans and plants, which is the root cause of many modern diseases."  http://healthimpactnews.com/2014/glyphosate-herbicide-causes-antibiotic-resistant-bacteria-kidney-disease-and-infertility/ 

Virtually all but legitimately organic soy and corn products (which means practically everything "processed") are infused with glyphosate.  This poison (which, by its very nature and intent is made to kill life) also interacts synergistically with other toxins and chemicals in the food and environment making it more deadly and insidious.

It appears that one of its worst effects is to mutate and destroy the healthy gut bacteria that is essential to the processing of nutrients for the body and immune system . . . which then leads to all kinds of secondary conditions and disease.  Again, almost everybody I know is having recently developing problems with their stomachs, with food allergies and headaches. . . . I think this pesticide, which is used all through the now ubiquitous array of GMO (bio-engineered) foods we are subject to . . . is a main culprit.

The answer is to avoid it as much as possible . . . and begin reparative work.  Really, as difficult as it is to rub shoulders with the Obama-stickered Subaru-driving liberal knuckleheads who tend to populate such sections . . . buying "organic" has got to become a habit.  Problem is, of course, that the Big Agra monopolies have figured this out and are buying up many organic brands and are even lobbying Congress (talk about knuckleheads!) to be able to slap the "organic" label on products containing GMO's! . . . so one has to be careful and smart when going the organic route.

I think someone who has the right idea and analysis on all of this is Stephanie Seneff, Phd. and she has a whole bunch of peer-reviewed research papers and presentations on this problem which can be found at her site if you want to get more educated on the matter.  (I know many of you already are quite well aware of all this and already taking measures. . . .)

Anyway, just thought I'd mention it.  It is difficult to fight (or flight) (mentally, spiritually, emotionally, and yes, physically) if you are wiped out in a stew of debilitating toxicity. . . .

http://people.csail.mit.edu/seneff/

http://healthimpactnews.com/2014/mit-researcher-glyphosate-herbicide-will-cause-half-of-all-children-to-have-autism-by-2025/

Thursday, January 15, 2015

What Does Your Treasure-Hub Say?



Recently, when I was back home for a few days from one of my working excursions to St. George . . . my oldest son Alexander and his wife Skye (I call her Skyekhina to differentiate from our Sky) visited and while I was playing in the family room with her too cute and smart pre-toddler Indy . . . I noted the ongoing lively conversation in the kitchen.  What were the ladies talking about?  God, Jesus, Christian things. . . .

Al and I had just had our own excited exchange about how wonderful it is to be locked on to the Truth and how He works things out always for the best spiritual good.  And I was pleasantly amused to think how awesome it is that when we get together--while we do catch up on the latest mundane happenings ("How's work?  How's so-and-so doing? How's the new place?" etc.)--the bulk of the discussion is about ie., sermons heard that were great, about what God has done in this or that situation, about the challenges of dealing with the corrupt, fallen world as a Christian . . . about how to live rightly in an increasingly anti-Christian culture . . . about certain points of theology . . . and so on.

And I thought, this is good.  I thought of Luke 6:45--"The good person out of the good treasure of his heart produces good, and the evil person out of his evil treasure produces evil, for out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks."

It was the most natural and typical thing to be happening, same as usual when we get together, and I believe how it ought to be generally when believers mingle.  If God really is the center of your life, the Lord of your reasoning, of your mind and emotions, if and as you so claim it, then it only makes sense that when you get together with the like-minded, this is where the conversation goes . . . as it shows what is truly foremost in your hearts.  If politics and worldly leaders and events are what you're focused on, that is what you'll talk about.  If covetousness, competition, jealousies and schadenfreude rule your minds, then gossip fills the air.   ("schadenfreude": pleasure derived by someone from observing another person's misfortune.)

Now we do talk of current events and what's happening with friends and family . . . but it is always in the context of how, as a testifying Christian, we deal with such things.  And no, it is not, "aren't we great?  We're Christian and everybody else sucks" lol.  It is more like "Oy, as Christian I really struggled with this part of me in that situation.  I need to do better, but God helps me so much to get over myself" etc.  Every time we do get into these discussions, which is every time we're together, there is always talk like, "Oh my goodness, the way I use to be, the way I use to think before I got saved--I was so lost, so selfish, so tormented, the old me would have ________ . . . but He has taken so much of that away, by His grace. . . ."

I'm not stupid enough to be relating this in order to say, "wow, look at us . . . look how spiritual and together we are."  Rather, I am just wanting to give glory to God for what He really does in transforming the lives of those who love and serve Him.  It is all Him.  I, we . . . take no credit whatsoever.  And it is certainly not to say that we have no challenges or problems or struggles and that all is smooth sailing.  On the contrary.  Being a believer in this world at this time . . . is to be constantly at odds with society, with the world.  It is to be ever persecuted, attacked, shunned, marginalized, lied on, maligned, cheated . . . whether in obvious and overt ways or subtly and behind the scenes.  The difference is in how we react to the antagonisms and slightings; how we are encouraged and challenged to fight evil not with evil but with longsuffering, understanding, compassion and even love. 

"If you were of the world, the world would love you as its own; but because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you." --John 15:19

I'm also offering this vignette up as a tip or kind of heads up.  What spills out of your heart when you get together with fellow folks who claim themselves "believers"?  Is God at the center of your excited discussion?  As the passion in the expressive tones rises . . . is it because you are recalling what the Lord has done or is doing in you and/or others?

"Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks."  What you tend to talk about most shows what you have been putting your heart on; what is closest  and most constant on your mind.

"For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."  --Luke 12:34

Usually what is traded are lists of the latest material possession acquired.  Or new employment status.  Or things or money lost by an unfortunate occurrence.  Or what "lucky" thing just happened for someone else; or, in gleefully recounting the recent misfortune of some enemy or competitor.

Does God EVER come up in typical ongoing social discussions?  Is the name of Jesus heard ONCE in a hundred thousand words babbled about current or family events?

Which is astounding if He is not . . . considering that our whole purpose and design made for this life . . . is to glorify God and live with Him forever!

If that is truly the purpose of life (which, as a believer we must admit that it is) then how is it that we so rarely even think of Him, let alone talk excitedly, passionately about Him and what He has done in and for that very purpose and meaning of our lives?

Making yourself think and talk about God . . . because you know you should . . . does not rectify the situation.  Instead, the lack thereof is an indicator of where your soul genuinely stands.  Is it in the world?  In the happenings of yourself and others?  Then that is what will pour out of your heart when communicating with others.  But if your treasure truthfully is stored in faith--in the glory of God--then thoughts, emotions and talk of Him . . . is what will spill out.

I believe one of the most powerful and important prayers and beseechings is . . . is to pray for having the love of God.  That is, to ask God to give you more of a hunger and passion and yearning and love for Him.  Pray to get the love of God.  Pray that you not be lukewarm, mediocre, average in faith.  Pray to burn, to yearn, to thirst after righteousness.  Pray that He instill in you a greater and greater desire to know Him, please Him, seek Him.

If you are feeling dry, somewhat nonchalant, tepid . . . in your passion for God, yet know that you should be feeling more intent and earnest . . . then pray for a new intensity.  Ask Him to give you greater hankering and devotion to fulfill the very meaning and central purpose of your existence!

If you are steadfast and not lazy in this, this is the thing that if you ask for it . . . you shall receive.  If you seek this, you will find it; if you knock, it will be opened. 

Nothing is more important in these dark times, or in any times . . . than that you seek to have a daily, intense passion for God--that He is the center of your life, the primary meaning and the purpose.  Everything else should relate to this.  He must be the hub of all your thoughts, emotions and activities.  Everything else are spokes radiating out from this hub . . . and then the wheel turns and you progress, you finally move.  For that hub . . . is an eternal thing.  It will not pass with the passing of life and the present age and world.  It is the one thing you can take with you.  That wheel is the wheel that will continue taking you through eternity, beginning now . . . if so you make it now!  This "hub" is your loving, devoted relationship with your heavenly Father, Creator of you and all the universe. . . .

If He is truly at the center, at the hub of your heart, wherein your treasures are stored, whereat nothing can take it nor corrupt, then this reality will naturally be shown and heard as it spills forth when you gather with the saints.  If this is not happening--if no such fruits are there--then pray to get it so that it is.  This is the first thing to be done; and by-the-way, this is the foremost "prep" . . . considering the storm clouds we see gathering . . . and for all that follows. . . .

so be it, so do it!:)

God bless,
brother, thomas


Monday, January 12, 2015

The Path To His Many Mansions

It is such a profound and simple thing.  And powerful . . . for real.

It is SO simple and such a close up thing to do . . . that it is missed much more often than not. . . .

So important is it . . . that between those who "get it" and those who don't . . . is the difference between life and death, heaven and hell.

One can be tricked, however, so that even among those who claim to be "believers" . . . it is the case that many banty the right words around yet continue to miss the mark.  And we know that to "miss the mark"--in the context of spiritual pursuit--is, in essence to sin. 

On top of all that, leading from all that . . . not understanding and employing this "profound and simple thing" causes the distinction between one who is pleasing to the Creator versus one who does not please the Creator.

Can there be anything more critical to understand and employ?  Only a grade-A fool would think that it is not that important to please the Creator of all that is.  Only a most delusional, myopic, self-absorbed ignoramus would shrug off the virtue in learning how to please the One who has the power of life and death, destruction and exaltation. . . .

So simple. . . .
And . . . so profound . . . because of its simplicity; and, while being the most powerful existential tool perhaps in the universe because of its availability to one and all.  It is there for a rich man to have, but the poor can have it too.  Young, old, black, white, short, tall, healthy, unhealthy, brilliant, average--it does not matter.  God has not reserved His Way only for some especially clever few, or just for those who have the money and contacts to get certain particular secrets.  He has not made it for only those who are capable of great ascetic disciplines--who are personally strong or self-controlled enough to  attain specific states of consciousness. . . .

No, the beneficent equanimity of The Lord is exemplified in His offering of this simple and profound spiritual "device" . . . where its proximity and use . . . is available to a child as well as to the accomplished professional.

It is quite simply faith, belief.  That's it.  And the more you have--the more you PUT INTO EFFECT--the more you please God and are rewarded.

You become an heir of righteousness through faith.  Who doesn't want to be righteous--legitimately, effectively righteous?  Only a fool.

And who on The Path does not want to grow in holiness, in sanctification?  It is the dream, the goal, the yearning of all who have seen the Light! 

All the other "ways" would have you work--do things--to gain in sanctification, to become more Godlike.  But these always and all fail.  What God asks is that you believe; and then what follows is that you act on what you truly believe.  Not what you CLAIM to believe, but what you actually believe.  The difference between those two is what will be judged on the last day.  Not what you said you believed, but what you really believed and then acted on in your life, whether anyone was there to see it or not.  Do you cheat on some assignment knowing that no person will know and the crime would thus be so-called "victimless"?  You do if you truly don't have belief in the God Who sees and answers all. 

And the more you trust what you say you believe and actually DO believe . . . you will find that finally, your character becomes transformed.  You finally do start--slowly but surely most likely--to think and feel and act more like the highest ideal you have in your heart as to what you want to be like.  Because of your God-given nature--being in the image of God--somewhere you long to be more like Him.  But the chasm seems so deep, so impassible, so impossible. . . .

Yet, as you EMPLOY . . . the very simple and profound "device" of faith, of genuinely believing . . . you find that at last you are starting to move . . . spiritually.

As the old saying goes, "I am not yet where I want to be . . . but truly I am no longer where I was!"

The work that there is to do . . . for the claimant (he who claims to be a "believer") is to find out just where and how much you truly do believe.  Too often we assert that we believe and have faith, yet our state of mind, our condition of heart, our thoughts and actions, worries, jealousies, resentments belie the fact that in too many areas we really DON'T believe and have faith.  We still try to have it our way--still try to finesse and maneuver with ulterior, self-seeking motives. 

We need to look deep within, unflinching to find the truth and shine the Light on those hidden corners of our being that are still holding out against God.

The more those grounds are brought into that Light and we take them back as God's territory (not our own) . . . the more we begin to enjoy the real and lasting fruits of the Spirit and the more we finally begin to grow and mature and blossom along the Walk into holy, perfect eternity.

"But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him." -- Heb.11:6.

 Without faith IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO PLEASE HIM!  That is a strong, absolute statement.  "It is IMPOSSIBLE to please Him!"

Too often we look for a thousand and one answers, tricks, techniques, secrets, ploys . . . to address the troubles in our life and are rarely at peace regardless of the front we portray.

But as we cede more and more of our inner ground to faith--to faith that God is good, that God is sovereign, that God loves and wants the best for us and is fully in charge whether we see all the details or not--then true, powerful, "supernatural" peace and power follows and grows and moves us surely along the Path to His many mansions.

So be it, so do it!:)
God bless!

Saturday, January 10, 2015

Meanwhile, Unnoticed Massacre

Meanwhile, while we are bombarded with 24/7 coverage of the (typically suspicious) "terror" attack in France (strange inconsistencies, coincidences and connections plus sudden official 'suicides' are already showing up)have you heard much about the AT LEAST 2000 mostly women, children, elderly that were just slaughtered by Islamist militants Boko Harem in Baga Nigeria? 

"District head Baba Abba Hassan said most victims are children, women and elderly people who could not run fast enough when insurgents drove into Baga, firing rocket-propelled grenades and assault rifles on town residents.
“The human carnage perpetrated by Boko Haram terrorists in Baga was enormous,” Muhammad Abba Gava, a spokesman for poorly armed civilians in a defence group that fight Boko Harem told the Associated Press.
He said the civilian fighters gave up on trying to count all the bodies. “No one could attend to the corpses and even the seriously injured ones who may have died by now,” Gava said."
http://www.theguardian.com/world/2015/jan/09/boko-haram-deadliest-massacre-baga-nigeria

I haven't seen it in any t.v. news reports so far, not local for sure and none on the national side.  I have not seen a lot of t.v. though in the last week so perhaps I missed it.    A little bit has shown up in print.

Or it could be those "poorly armed civilians" were mostly black Christians.  That would explain the lack of coverage, whereas the French victims were . . . well, precious French liberal  journalists.

Here is a graph roughly showing the comparison of coverage between the two events.  The red line is the French story, the blue is the Nigerian:




Friday, January 9, 2015

On "Race" and Racism


I assume anyone bothering to come here is a Believer or close to it--so that's who I write for; to and from that perspective.  I'm not interested in wasting pearls on "swine".  (Hey--not my words. . . .)

Anyway, a note and reminder to those on the Path. . . .

Heads up:  Don't let the demonic, Marxist-Masonic (hey that rhymes!) NWO knuckleheads turn you into a racist.  As Believers we believe in one race.  The biological differences between "the races" are very superficial. . . . We have mostly the idiotic, unscientific, fairy tale theory of evolution to thank for modern times racist beliefs and practices.  Thanks again, Darwin (you racist knucklehead.)

What is painfully obvious is that the Satanic globalists are trying to pit race against race--to divide us for the easier conquering.  What makes certain people vile, socially degenerate, thugs and terrorists . . . is ideology, culture, not race. For instance, we are presently being shown many instances of (yes, real) dumb, black ill behavior and enforced double standards related thereto.  This is causing many whites and others, who really weren't "racist" before . . . to now start getting a real anger and resentment toward those shown in the street protests, "knock-out" games, crime reports etc.  The same thing is being done to "Arabs" where we are being shown constant (yes, real) instances of "Arabs" acting like deranged, murderous maniacs.  Of course, in both cases, the gate-keepers ("the media") and "official" pundits are always downplaying the cultural part of the equation, ie., "it's not Islam"  . . . "it's not the welfare state" so that the viewer is left to think, "well I guess then it's because they're black or Arab".



When in fact, it IS "Islam" . . . it is "the welfare state"--it IS the ideology, the culture that these malcontents are steeped in which is what drives their knucklehead behavior! 

The blacks in America . . . who have been fed a constant diet of anti-American, anti-white, Marxist agit-prop . . . behave and think quite differently than average, working-class blacks--especially Christian blacks--in . . . say Sudan . . . or Nigeria.  Like average, working-class people everywhere . . . they tend to be friendly, accommodating, gentle, sweet and nothing like the angry, ignorant, violent, brainwashed ghetto zombies who (thanks to American left-wing liberalism) populate America's big cities.  What is the difference?  Both are black. . . . The difference is the ideology and culture that they've been stewed in.  Thanks, "liberals". . . .

Same with the Arabs.  It is getting easier and easier to have a knee-jerk fear and resentment toward anyone looking like an Arab.  What we see is a "likely terrorist".  Is it because of their race?  Is their something in the Arab "race" that makes some of them act like screaming, incoherent, shrieking psychopaths?

I just finished a book a little while ago--a biography about C.M. Doughty--about the eccentric English poet, traveler who is credited with writing the first real, extensive, first-hand white-man look at the interior of Arabia in the late 1800s ("Arabia Deserta").  He preceded T.E. Lawrence. And indeed, while he nearly got killed several times by the radical (Arabian) Islamists he met . . . .who wanted to kill him simply for being a "Nasrany" (a Christian) . . . he was saved more times by the helpful, reliable, common desert Bedouins (also Arabian raced) by their culture of hospitality and "protection of the stranger".  It wasn't the Arab race--but the Arab culture/ideology that made the difference. 
                                            [one of the pashas from C.M. Doughty's travels]

I myself encountered serious, un-prejudiced, white southern hospitality when I lived in Tallahassee, much as I would expect to find in any part of the world, in any race, where the common, average, work-a-day people are left to their God-given, family-centered natures and where some delusional, megalomaniacal power-monger's ideology hasn't been crammed down their throats and into their brains for a generation or two.  You know what I mean. . . .

So, don't let the dastardly, Marxist-Jesuit-Monopolist NWO maniacs who control the media turn you into an uncritical, garden variety, knee-jerk racist.  It's a trick.  They are (quite obviously to any with half a brain) trying to divide and conquer us.  They are dicing up our common culture (in this case, our common Judeo-Christian, American culture.)  And for those who knee-jerk hate Jews, don't forget that the God of the universe WAS A JEW!  God chose the Jewish people first through whom to bring His Word.  The Holy Bible was mostly written by Jews, and I thank God for them.  Again, just because some very devious, demon-inspired individual men are also Jewish . . . who make up the inner cabal of the Marxist, Bankster, globalist NWO directorship--it is not because they are Jews.  They have a certain ideology, culture (Luciferian) which drives them and molds them to be the monsters they are.  And every race has representatives in the elite, demonic governing body.

Don't be a racist.  It's stupid.  It's what "they" want you to be--to forget that God created all the so-called races and He is no respecter of persons.  Since the New covenant, any man, woman of any race is equally entitled to the riches of Heaven, should they be adopted into His eternal family. 

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"As a result of Darwinian evolution, many people started thinking in terms of the different people groups around the world representing different “races,” but within the context of evolutionary philosophy. This has resulted in many people today, consciously or unconsciously, having ingrained prejudices against certain other groups of people. . . .

Those working on mapping the human genome announced “that they had put together a draft of the entire sequence of the human genome, and the researchers had unanimously declared, there is only one race—the human race. . . .

Dr. Harold Page Freeman, chief executive, president, and director of surgery at North General Hospital in Manhattan, reiterates, “If you ask what percentage of your genes is reflected in your external appearance, the basis by which we talk about race, the answer seems to be in the range of 0.01 percent.”

In other words, the so-called “racial” differences are absolutely trivial— overall, there is more variation within any group than there is between one group and another. If a white person is looking for a tissue match for an organ transplant, for instance, the best match may come from a black person, and vice versa. ABC News claims, “What the facts show is that there are differences among us, but they stem from culture, not race.”

The Bible does not even use the word race in reference to people, but it does describe all human beings as being of “one blood” (Acts 17:26).

https://answersingenesis.org/racism/are-there-really-different-races/

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"At some future period not very distant as measured by centuries, the civilized races of man will almost certainly exterminate and replace the savage races throughout the world. At the same time the anthropomorphous apes...will no doubt be exterminated. The break between man and his nearest Allies will then be wider, for it will intervene between man in a more civilized state, as we may hope, even than the Caucasian, and some ape as low as the baboon, instead of as now between the negroes or Australian and the gorilla." (1874, p. 178).   racist Chucky Darwin

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Me & Z on Zeph Report (link)

Here is the link to the kick-off show to Zeph's new era of high spirited podcast verbiage. . . .

http://zephdaniel.podbean.com/

Talk w/ Z . . . And a recipe for being impervious

. . . . an hour or so until airtime with Zeph . . . 9am MST.......  It won't be live but soon Zeph said the podcast should end up here:  http://zephdaniel.podbean.com/

Looking forward to it, it's been a while. . . . .
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My best advice in general--and it has not really changed since I saw the Light and then already had seen the dark and the psychotronic-technotronic totalitarian like-Noah-days future--is through all to remember that the objective is to GLORIFY GOD and amidst the takedown and shakedown in all things to LIVE BLAMELESSLY.  And those two go together very nicely.  If you are not in the spiritual space to See and understand what this means, then you are subject to all kinds of attack, anxiety, fear and sense of hopelessness.  But, when you recall the point of it all, which is to GLORIFY GOD . . . and then recall and enact what that means in day-to-day practical application ("live blamelessly") then you attain a kind of instant invulnerability--you are like a superhero, impervious to the wicked, degenerate madness of the present world.  Combine with this a complete recognition and surrender to the fact that GOD IS SOVEREIGN OVER ALL . . . and . . . well, the Enemy can go pound sound.  He can't get his hooks into you.  Where are you anyhow?  How can the demented evil fool or his minions snag you . . . when you have already died to yourself and now only live to glorify God Who is sovereign over all things and all beings?  Game over. . . . You can walk through this stinking mess like a champ!  Just make it real.  REALLY be in that spiritual place; not just have it as an intellectual concept or vague goal.  Make it real . . . HERE . . . NOW!

God blesses you in this--

Brother Thomas ©2015

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