It would appear the Father sends a spirit of martyrdom to certain believers meant to strengthen, glorify . . . and prepare the lambs meant for slaughter. . . . A kind of yearning to be a martyr wells up in the believer where they secretly long to be a sacrifice for the Lord, for the Truth. It is nothing like a masochistic or morbid spirit; the mind and heart are focused only on bringing glory to God--showing Him the "greatest love there is" . . . "to lay down one's life for another"--for the demonstration of His truth, His glory. . . .
The stories of many of the early martyrs show this spirit in their recorded testimonies and proclamations as the wicked children of the devil commenced their rampaging persecutions of the faithful. The same spirit invests in those who, while not martyred, will nevertheless suffer varying degrees of persecution for their witnessing for the Truth.
Something to be understood now--deeply and thoroughly--is to realize that when that time comes, it will likely otherwise be a lonely, shameful affair. Many times, it will not really be obvious to others--to whatever audience there is at the time--that the lamb is being put up for their faithfulness in God. Other "crimes" will be listed. In the early Church days, martyrs were not technically put to death because of their "love of God" but because of their purported "crimes against the state." They were reviled for being insane, dangerous, perverse, fanatical, insubordinate to law. . . .
If you are to be a martyr or to suffer severe persecution . . . it is highly likely that in your moment of trial, you will be left very much alone to stand and make your case, if even that is allowed. Only you and God and perhaps a few of the nearby elect, will know the real reason for the oppression. To the world, to the mob, to the "authorities" . . . you will be labeled and determined to be nothing noble at all, but instead called the most foolish, the most dangerous, "bigoted", "hateful". . . . It will seem as if all have deserted you and you will be pressured to doubt your faith, your sanity, your rationality, your worth. . . .
When all have left you--perhaps even betrayed you (such as friends and even family) you will be hard pressed to justify just why you have ended up in the position you have. At that moment all you will have is God in your heart, your mind, your soul as witness to your sincerity and apparent calling. . . .
You will be called mad for not simply acquiescing to the very "reasonable" demands of the state and authorities in this or that proscription of law or societal expectation. Merely assent to what they want of you, and you will be released from your torment. . . . What "sane" person would not step away from their faith for a time to spare violence or imprisonment to themselves or their threatened loved ones?
In the days of severe persecution . . . it may be that everyone around you will be pressuring you to simply "give a little" to avoid dire consequences. . . . No noble pageant or heroic reporting of your steadfastness will be happening--but instead all will be against you, to the point that you may begin finally to doubt your sanity or to question the necessity of so firmly "standing for Truth, for God".
Now is the time to prepare, while the mob and the state persecution units are still organizing and haven't yet "hit the streets". . . . Persecution has started in earnest, and martyrs are already abounding in these late, days of high evil. . . . Ministering angels and the Spirit may even now be familiarizing you with the courage and spirit YOU must have . . . to shine brightly for and to God . . . in the coming storms of judgment. . . .