Repetition and mundanity . . . . . . . . . the secret to (a decently) good life . . . . . . if accepted . . . . with grace and poise . . . . . expectations vanquished, but Heaven . . . . . In the Name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
No, really . . . it's true!
You want to be constantly miserable, unhappy? . . . . Then try to apply some semi-magical system like the "law of attraction", whereby you chase around goals, dreams and ambitions, employing a formula of mental focus and "intention" toward them . . . thinking that one day . . . some day, when you at last get those things under control and in possession (whether it's wealth or health or relationships) . . . then . . . THEN . . . you will have "arrived" and attained some satisfaction . . . . . .
Whereas, deep and lasting satisfaction and a certain peace which confounds natural understanding . . . is found . . . in humble, submitted . . . acceptance of the inevitable mundane course of this life, where spiritual growth and experience is not found in giant explosions and leaps and changes of scenery, but in the daily, steadfast, meek, step-by-step, incremental REAL growth and change--as is seen in His creation, where the banyan tree, or redwood sequoia . . . starts as a sprig, and whose ascent you never perceive--imperceptibly in the moment--but over time becomes a giant . . . !
Spiritual growth/understanding is like this. I recall the allure I once encountered as a young seeker, looking into the thrilling and exotic accounts of sudden "enlightenment" coming from the "East" and its various mystical traditions. The seduction was that . . . as you were dutifully practicing one or another ascetic, mystical disciplines . . . one day, some day . . . it would be like Buddha sitting under the Bodhi tree--VOILA!--instant cosmic consciousness! The day before you were a mundane, ignorant seeker, stumbling about in the dark . . . but now--in a shock of the ultimate "punctuated equilibrium" (Cladogenesis) . . . you are a new species, replete with "God consciousness", all-knowing, fully transcendent . . . "THE Buddha" . . . a "master" . . . an "Adept" . . . "Realized" . . . "Oneness" . . ."Satori/Nirvana" etc. . . . . .
I think of all the self-purported gurus I came across at that time . . . and what became sadly obvious to me in every case . . . . Was how such people who had supposedly "Attained" . . . had actually only self-hypnotised themselves into a delusion that they had "transcended" the world and achieved some sort of cosmic superhuman status . . . . A few were outright charlatans, but most had actually convinced themselves that they were now "Enlightened" and nothing was more plain to me than that I was simply looking at a person putting on (spiritual) airs, acting the part . . . but within there skulked the same old, covetous, prideful, greedy, lying cheat (that we all are).
In the Christian Walk, there is indeed a moment of "rebirth"--when and where one surrenders to the Lord . . . Believes and puts final trust in Jesus as the Way, the Truth and the Life . . . . And at that moment, in the Heavenly places, one is Justified and seen as whole and perfect in the eyes of the Father . . . . BUT, there is a meanwhile component, where we retain a dual nature as our yet fallen and corrupted bodes, mind, heart . . . continue in this place, travellers still on the Road, vagrants in this doomed land, just passing through . . . . Here, it is the constant, diligent and humbly dignified patience and "waiting" . . . step-by-step . . . pilgrims progress . . . where spiritual growth and correction ("sanctification") . . . unfolds almost organically, like what we see in nature, how vines and fruit grow . . . incrementally--NOT, in sudden cosmic flashes of instant transformation or appearance.
Trusting the Lord in this steady, sometimes (often?lol) tedious slog . . . brings a certain holy grace and poise . . . that the flitting and the flaky--the nervous and the undulating--fail to acquire, and so, usually fail to grow . . . in strength, depth, profundity, assurance . . . as their anxiousness and immaturity are constantly sabotaging what was about to be their real, new and more intimate relationship . . . with . . . the Lord, the Father, the Spirit . . . . .