An Holy Repeat! . . . and REPEAT AGAIN!

I woke up today with a head full of God, full of Jesus; been immersed in Him all morning.  I love it when His spirit is near, surrounding--can't get enough!

The unsaved might drop by here and react within, "oh brother, he's talking about God AGAIN . . . !"  To them it is grating, annoying, tedious, all this God talk.

But when His spirit has caught you, and you've seen the Light . . . you can't get enough.  You want more.  You crave it all the time.  You ponder over Him and your relationship with Him, how it is going.  You want to hear about biblical figures, stories, lessons, psalms, proverbs.  Everything involved with the Lord . . . is sweet and fresh and enlightening.  The WORLD is tedious, annoying, dull, grating!

And the Believer knows that it is dangerous for even a day to go by where HE is not foremost in your considerations.  The Spirit experiencer . . . knows . . . that the worldly concerns of the day can quickly overwhelm and displace the still, small, sweet voice . . . and all too soon . . . you realize that you have drifted into the currents of the flesh; your mind is occupied with a quivering stew of worries, doubts, vexation, axiety, wants and needs . . . .

No longer are you fixated on God, on the Lord and what HE wants and cherishes, but, rather, all your petty desires and vying infatuations ransack the inner temple, leaving it dirty and at last you may find yourself sitting in a grimy corner fighting with demons wondering . . . where did the Spirit go?  Why am I feeling suddenly all alone and lost again?

So, the earnest seeker and the determined disciple . . . fights daily to preserve the scents of sanctity--the inner incense waftings of Holy Spirit, from when He has come and met with you . . . and--knowing the fragility of pure spirit holding ground in this violent, physical battlefield--you return daily, HOURLY to confess at the altar and to imbibe the spiritual food and drink which is shared among similar Believers and teachers and fellow students.  There is nothing tedious or grating about it.  You crave to be in the company of like minded and like spirited individuals who also love God the Father above all and who also commune with the Holy Spirit . . . passing the flame of interest, of determination . . . back and forth, keeping it alive, never straying too far from constant immersion in His name, His teachings, His Spirit, His purposes! . . . for THERE, in that consistency . . . is found real joy, strong peace, chastity, integrity . . . HOLINESS!

The unsaved . . . tires of the name Jesus.  Oh, here and there, He can be mentioned . . . along with other so-called "teachers" . . . just one wise man among many who have come and gone . . . . But this carrying on, day after day, about Jesus . . . and "harping" on current events as if they all related to the bible . . . strikes the worldly as "fanatical" . . . "obsessed" . . . and just . . . well, "too much."

But to those who love truth, who find themselves regularly naked before The Truth and who thrive on more and more of their falsity being stripped away . . . and who crave perfection and purity . . . and who have tasted the incense of Holy Spirit and the accompanying atmosphere of sanctity . . . MORE and MORE of it, however, whenever . . . conveyed and shared . . . is the stuff of LIFE!  It is the foolish and prideful who have had enough of it.  The self loving and prideful . . . get hung up on the messenger and cannot see past the believer's personal faults and flaws, not understanding . . . that . . . in this world, in this time, the Lord works through imperfect vessels . . . BUT HE WORKS nonetheless through ANY and ALL who simply, genuinely LOVE HIM and who believe and through such . . . He speaks, when and where He will; and those who have realized this . . . are constantly attentive for His voice, for it is everywhere--He is CONSTANTLY knocking on the door of pride and of crystallized, fallen ego--and He loves to use the weak and the broken and flawed . . . for this shows His mercy and grace and glory; the self loving and the lofty are like hardened dark obsidian, opaque, dense, brittle--no light comes through them, for they are too full of themselves
and always conniving for displays, obsessed . . . NOT WITH GOD . . . but with how others perceive them and what their legacy might be . . . .

The naked, the broken, the poor, the weak, the spiritually "fearful" . . . are open . . . willing . . . eager . . . hungry . . . to hear His voice, whether He speaks to them from within and/or when He speaks through his childlike, contrite, repentant, demurring . . .  BELIEVERS!  The disciple gains a taste . . . and A SKILL even . . . to be able to (lovingly) LOOK PAST and HEAR PAST the unfinished character of the vessel . . . to recognize that part coming through which IS of TRUTH . . . . Where JESUS Himself is speaking and many times . . . obviously supernaturally answering specific questions that the disciple has asked recently.  The student learns to listen . . . all the time . . . and often to and through THE LEAST . . . for here is where God loves to exhibit His majesty and "supernatural" character . . . . NOT through the "powerful" . . . "elite" . . . and "wealthy" . . . . But very touchingly . . . and simply . . . through those who just love Him above all, and who have usually suffered at the wicked and perverse hands of the world . . . but who continue, through all . . . . . to remain focused, fixated . . . repetitively (though not ROTELY) . . . consistently, daily, hourly . . . ON HIM!

The Believer knows how tenuous staying in the spirit can be.  They have strayed before . . . gotten lost . . . become dead . . . and been rescued . . . knowing that certainly, NOT BY THEIR OWN POWER are they brought back into the fold--but that it HAD to be the Lord who found them and brought them back.  And the terror in the realization of how easy it is . . . to falter and . . . drift . . . and then realizing you've acquired a taste for sin . . . and stumbled into various addictions . . . well . . . the terror in knowing how serious and easy it is to be led or go astray . . . keeps one vigilant thereafter . . . and purposeful . . . in staying ALIVE in the Word and fellowshipping with other TRUE . . . Believers . . . and it becomes THE WORLD which is tedious and repetitive and stultifying . . . whereas you find no end to hunger for God and all things and people GENUINELY associated with Him!

Lol.  It was kind of funny . . . at the end of the talk yesterday with Zeph . . . . We stumbled into what ought to be the campaign slogan for the coming year, "Hope And Terror"!  Heh, I was saying something to the effect . . . of what an exciting and yet, scary time we are living in, and especially . . . having the sense of what is coming upon us over this next year's time . . . and I said it was full of "hope and terror" . . . and Z, adroitly . . . caught it--as he is a great listener! . . . and said that ought to be the new campaign slogan . . . :) And it is apropos on several different levels, pertinent at this time.  There is the sacred hope that all Believers share in the GOOD final outcome of all . . . . There is the fake hope offered by "man" and his self-serving machinations . . . . There is the terror that the followers of the demonic bring . . . in all they do, and they are even now intending to do . . . . There is the holy terror, fitting, that the disciple knows where they KNOW and have realized the profound stakes involved with all of this . . . .

My wife just asked me what I was writing about and I told her and she brought up . . . how, in seeking to maintain the Spirit . . . that you can simply pray and ask for a double portion of Spirit . . . and . . . you can get it!  Often, we forget to simply ask the Lord for His Spirit to be in us, to inspire us, to infuse us all throughout and within . . . !  The tediums of the world can make us forget how close He is and how willing and eager He is to fill us with His presence . . . . The Good News is . . . that if you come to Him with an open and contrite heart . . . and ask . . . His forgiveness, His mercy . . . He WILL respond!

And I feel led . . . also today . . .  to say thank you.  YOU . . . know who you are, where God is working through YOU . . . . . Especially, at this time of year, where so many demands and expectations are there; it is never taken for granted and I and my family . . . are humbled . . . and a lot more . . . that words fail to wholly capture . . . .

I am touched and blessed . . . that anyone bothers to come here and share . . . in this fixation, this daily "obsession" . . . "fanaticism" . . . :) . . . to talk about, think about, write about, pray to . . . pray with . . . all about God . . . The ONE true God . . . specifically--He of the Holy, most blessed and powerful name: Jesus!

Can't get enough of Him . . . . !
More, more, MORE!  Deeper, stronger, purer, holier, profounder, an Holy refrain . . . day after day after night after night after day after day . . . forever!

Double portions, I pray, FOR EVERYONE!  And then some!  An Holy repeat . . . and repeat . . . and repeat--THE refrain!
your brother always, in His name, thomas